I wish I know things better and would have taken a different path in life. Do you think I need to have some sort of commitment from him before I can make that decision. Ultimately there are no guarantees but I'd say it's worth a shot. You never had it.

I'll keep digging through it, but there's a lot there and I'd like some suggestions to narrow my search. So, kudos to you for having such a wonderful relationship for so long and getting through step 1 and 2 and matching. As a physician buckling under the stress, my assigned counsellor who is also a church minister told me: So, what do I do with that.
And as an anonymous comment put it, date night is sometimes out of the question because he is using his "free" time as catch up on sleep time. That was my experience. When we started dating, he was in his fellowship. I asked, he refused. I'd rather marry a rich doctor and let him have his affair s on the side just so long as I don't have to work anymore. If you are a believer and are willing to go, then well and good.
And if he loves you as much as you love him. My experience with non members has been so much more meaningful and caring. I'm dating a Mormon girl right now but we both understand that it is most likely isn't going to last long. I know a lot of Mormons who were also not raised on fear and guilt and strict gender rolesвbut I was, as were many of my peers. I learned, growing up, that very principle, that you HAD to marry a member or your marriage was doomed. Hi, I am so glad to know that I am not alone.